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I've never been good at making friends so the ones I do have, I hold very dear to me. There are also some people in my past that I still hold dear that I thought the friendship was totally over because of somethings both of us said and did.

Then there are friendships that I have that are entirely superficial. It usually takes me a while to realize these friendships and I always end up being the one hurt by them.

There have been several people that I'm no longer friends with because the friendship wasn't really real to begin with. Then there are ones that I thought I was done with that have come back into my life and I feel like I want that friendship to be back where it was before it was ended.

I now find myself in a predicament where I am coming in contact with an old friend that I had a falling out with, there is nothing I'd like more than to repair this friendship and she seems to be on the same page as me. I am also losing a friend that I thought was a true friend but it turns out, she's nothing but a fake.

The friend and I that had the falling out were totally mean to each other, hurtful mean. Devastatingly mean. We said a lot of things to each other that we probably meant at the time but after we said it and let it all sink in, we realized how stupid and selfish we were. I miss our friendship. I'm worried that we won't be able to be as close as we were before, but I'm okay with having a nice, normal friendship with her, at least being friendly together.

On the other hand, I don't want to be friends with this other one any longer. She's made some very rude and mean comments to me that are unforgivable, questioning me as a person and a parent. This has pissed me off. I want to end the friendship, but I'm horrible with confrontation.